Just Love

"I must be willing to give whatever it takes to do good to others. This requires that I be willing to give until it hurts. Otherwise, there is no true love in me, and I bring injustice, not peace, to those around me." [Maya Angelou]

This is where I am right now... at the point where my heart is raw, open, and vulnerable; a place that is so healthy and so real, but also so scary and so risky. I am crying at the drop of a hat, not because I am sad, but just because I'm overcome with emotion. Good emotion, yet also inescapable. There is something so exquisite about feeling as though your soul is exactly where it needs to be, and you are truly living out your purpose. There is something so peaceful, so eye opening, and so fulfilling about seeing God working his magic in your life, and through you, into the lives of others. I am exhausted, a little anxious, and slightly afraid of the unknown, but I also feel an overwhelming sense of comfort and relief in the fact that I am absolutely powerless; He is in control.

To tell you the truth, if someone had told me in May that I was going to fall so madly in love with Costa Rica that I was going to defer grad school for a year, pack up my things, and move myself (and Cooper) indefinitely, I would have laughed in their face. There wouldn't have been any reason to argue, because it wasn't even on my radar. And that is proof that this beautiful life is so much more than we could ever hope, dream, or wish for; He has more magnificent plans for us than we could ever create for ourselves. I initially planned for this little adventure to end on Saturday, but as it turns out, God took the wheel and I am just trying to be an instrument of his peace and love as I just enjoy the ride.

"I have found that among its other benefits, giving liberates the soul of the giver." [Maya Angelou]